My darling beautiful Heather, There are still no words and never will to describe life without you, our house is empty and has no fun or love in it , my life has no purpose and tommorrow is another painful day as it will be your 66th birthday, your favourite orchids will come, how I wish the shoes were to. You told our lovely Jess that you worried I wouldnt manage without you, how right you always were as I cant, I tell them all that with you I could walk on water, without you I have been drowning each day ,I am now near the bottom ,all I want is to be with you, my heart is broken in so many pieces and I need you to mend it. If only tommorrow could be a happy birthday, one shadow is not enough for our walk. I pray we are together soon, please wait for me. All my love fore ever as always. Alan.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxcc