My darling Heather, My amazing friend Brian has added our songs for your birthday next week , as you know how hopeless I am at these things and am very grateful, how I wish you had known him, he is one special man. As for all else the pain ,loneliness and tears get worse and this miserable life continues, I miss you so so so much and always will until we are back together. My love forever as always. Alan. Xxxxxx