My darling darling irreplaceable Heather, Its 5 years today since our world and future collapsed and you were taken so cruelly from me., time seems irrelevant, it might as well be 5 seconds or 500 years, the pain, tears and gut wrenching loneliness without you dont change, neither does the once perfect family you created that is no longer,I pray you dont know. Your lovely friends Jan and Sandra have been so kind to me as has Michelle and Lorna, I cant thank them enough, , there are so many life changing decisions to be made soon which would have been easy for me with the benefit of your wisdom , so many of your predictions have come true,you said I wouldn't manage without you and in reality I haven't, Ive become a good actor, thank goodness I have James. You are in my thoughts every split second of every day wandering round this house that used to be a home ,every second brings me nearer to being back with you, I have so much to tell you. Heather, there never will be words to describe my life without you or how privileged and lucky I was to have you, my absolute perfect soulmate. My love forever my darling girl., please wait for me, Yours as always. Alan.💌 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx