My Darling Amazing Heather, Another anniversary without you, 46 years ago today we got married and you made me the luckiest, happiest boy in the world, unlike today, our day was bright and sunny, the rain and dullness today make it all the more depressing , I miss you so very much ,the pain, gut wrenching loneliness and tears without you never stops. I have been watching the video of our 40th when I got you your Porsche, the look of disbelief ,surprise and joy on your face haunts me and gives me goose bumps, I had hoped it would give you something else to hang on to and live for, happy days with James, Jess, Chris ,Ed and lovely little Betsy , all gone,memories !! Where ever you are my darling please wait for me, I never will have words to describe how I feel. I love you and miss you and think about you every second of the day, My love for ever , Your Alan . ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡