My darling Heather, yet another Christmas without you, the inner loneliness never gets easier or better, I’ve becomes a good actor, James,V and the girls are coming over next year, the first time since I lost you , I’m so looking forward to this, we have some very pretty granddaughters,in other directions life remains cruel, Heather I love and miss you so very very much, the upside is that I’m nearer to my dream of being back with you . My everlasting love as always, your boy, Alan. 💔💔💔😪😪😪😇