My darling darling Heather, its 4.30 am its your 69 the birthday and I just cannot believe another year has gone, I've bought you an orchid as I always used to and your candle burns every night ,oh Heather I love and miss you so so much, our lovely house is empty and not a home anymore , I wish I could say life was better, but its not and never will be without you, the loneliness is unbearable. What I said last year is the same now , my tears,flow as I write this and can't wait to be with you, if only I could wish us both ,"happy" My ever lasting love as always . Your , Alan xxxxxxxxxxx.