My darling Heather, today is our wedding anniversary , it’s 52 years today you made me the luckiest, happiest man ever and I miss you so so much, I held your hand through life and now in death, I will never let it go , no one ever takes notice of the “ till death you shall part “ bit of the ceremony until it happens and that rips your world apart, losing you has torn the once amazing family you left apart , life remains cruel, the upside is every day brings me nearer to being back with you and then all will be perfect. We have your nephew Joe staying in our flat , it’s a joy to have part of your family so close, he’s a lovely lad , James and girls are well , growing up to quickly, hopefully they will come and see me next year, the first time since I lost you , you are in my thoughts every single second of the day, I love you and miss you and can’t wait to be back with you my darling , my everlasting love as always, your boy, Alan .😪😪💔💔xxx

My darling Heather, I tried all yesterday to talk to you and could not make it work, life seems to be full of passwords and e.mails and modern technology which you understood but I struggle with , it’s so frustrating, yesterday was another birthday without you , I miss you so very much and how you made every occasion special, life remains cruel but James and family have been amazing, age is creeping on now my darling, as said I hope you are waiting for me and will recognise me when I’m back with you , the sooner the better. You are with me every second of every day, My everlasting love as always, your boy , Alan 😪😪❤️❤️❤️😩

My darling Heather, here we are again on the 9th anniversary of the worst day of my life, I’m sitting on your seat with the view across the valley as I type this remembering all the wonderful times we had in this home we built so lovingly together , it’s missing it’s mistress terribly and looking abit tired now as age is creeping up on me and it won’t be long before I have some awful decisions to make . All I ever wanted in life was to grow old with you , life so cruel in many ways ,James is trying to persuade me to go and live in Singapore , thank you so much for giving me him,he has made life so much more bearable and our two little granddaughters are amazing,no matter where I /we end up you will be with me in our secret final resting place. Heather I love you and miss you every split second of every day and can’t wait to be back with you, With help I have added an extremely poignant song to the music on your page , the religious bit is irrelevant but the rest just made me cry and cry,there is one angel in heaven that knows my name. My everlasting love as always , your really lonely boy, Alan 💔💔😢😢xxxxx