My darling darling Heather, fifty eight years ago today I gave you Petula Clark’s “This is my Song” you were just sweet seventeen just like our beautiful Betsy who was seventeen years three days ago , the words to the song are still so poignant , our other granddaughters are in Japan , loving seeing the snow for the first time. Life is slightly less cruel as I’m hoping and praying for a renewed relationship with Betsy after all these years but it’s her call, if there is a God why did he do this to us , all I can do is thank you again and again for the life you gave me and the memories you have left me and wish you a happy seventy fifth birthday,the upside is that each birthday brings me nearer to being back with you , Heather, I’ve said it all so many times before and nothing changes , you are with me every second of every day , you are my world, that will never change, my everlasting love as always my darling, your boy , Alan 💔💔😪😪😇😇xxxx

Can you believe Betsy is 17 today, I wish I knew her , I live in hope 🙏🏻, I miss you so much Heather , All my love, your boy, Alan .😪😪❤️

My darling Heather, yet another Christmas without you, the inner loneliness never gets easier or better, I’ve becomes a good actor, James,V and the girls are coming over next year, the first time since I lost you , I’m so looking forward to this, we have some very pretty granddaughters,in other directions life remains cruel, Heather I love and miss you so very very much, the upside is that I’m nearer to my dream of being back with you . My everlasting love as always, your boy, Alan. 💔💔💔😪😪😪😇