My Darling Darling Heather, I have just come through a couple of minor but necessary operations which have left me sore and quite ill, how I have missed you being with me and comforting me ,Lorna was with me throughout and has been really supportive, you would be proud of her and I am extremely grateful. Its our lovely daughter Jess,s birthday in two weeks time,sadly I wont see her as she has other plans, I pray from us both she has a great day, the first time in 38 years she wont see either of us, the next day we are off to Singapore for Christmas, it will be lovely to see James and his growing family. Life without you is a very lonely ,miserable existance that continues to deteriorate each day, the magic you gave this once amazing family along with the glue you supplied to keep us all together disappeared when I lost you and all I want is to be with you. I love you and miss you more than words can describe, the tears flow daily and my heart is broken in so many pieces. Wait for me please. My love as always for ever. Alan.xxxxx