My darling darling Heather, We are now in Singapore having got an earlier flight, the rose I put on you is now a red hibiscus, your grandaughters here have grown and are real poppets although Anna is still a little unsure of me, Amelie races round in her baby walker and just smiles all day, you would love them, our son looks well and so does V. Today is OUR little girls birthday and I have tried for us to be the first to wish her many happy returns and to pray she has a lovely day, sadly without us for the first time. Im in the bedroom we had when we last came here together and all I see is you walking around and remember the things we said and did together, my darling even though the house is full I am and always will be so so alone without you, Jan has been particularly kind as things just get worse daily, she was a good friend to you and now to me, I appreciate her generosity and company so much now as Ali and Cameron have gone home, its how it should be. I love and miss you and just dont want to be anywhere any more without you, having been so cruel perhaps God will now be kind. My love for ever as always, cant wait to be with you again. Your broken hearted and very tearfull Alan.