My Darling Darling Heather, Its New Years Eve here in Singapore, the end of another miserable year without you, Im dreading the next one and wonder why I go on as I really dont want to be here without you, this time always made you sad as we remembered those we had lost, words will never be able to describe my loss, the gut wrenching loneliness and utter devastation at losing you my soulmate. James and V have made me feel welcome although I fear Ive not been very good company but then I never will be, waking up to a house thats not empty has been a real comfort but its back to reality next Tuesday as we fly back home to our empty ,lonely house, perhaps I may see more of Jess ,Ed and Betsy next year, that will help. I think about you every split second, my heart will never mend and the tears never stop till Im back with you, Im another year nearer. My love forever, I will never break your heart. Alan.xxxxxx