Well my darling girl the day ,thank God the day is about over, its up there with the other devastatingly miserable anniversary days I suffer without you, people (family) are kind but I dont see now the ones I want to ,its all very sad, God cant grant some of my wishes but he did grant one today in that James is well and on his way back to Singapore where we are going again for Christmas, I so miss all those good birthdays I(we) used to have together, I love and miss you so and if my everynight wish was granted I could leave our lonely bed and be with you. My love for ever, Alan xxxxx