My darling soulmate Heather, I will never forgive God for taking you from me although I am told that I must be grateful as he gave you to me in the first place, and I am, what a life you gave me ,there are no words to describe my thanks for that or the devastating loneliness ,pain and tears that continue without you, this will always be the worst day of my life, I sit alone praying for you to walk back through our kitchen door and plan our day together Im trying so hard to cope with this life Im left with and cry every day for you because you should be here with me, I just cant believe this is our 3rd anniversary apart our house is empty, like me and lonely when it was so full of love ,fun, happiness and laughter and it misses its mistress, the garden is getting on top of me now but the roses we bought are all out and looking good. I keep fresh flowers in our bedroom for you , a light on all day and a candle all night as you said you never wanted to be in the dark and I will never let you be. Please wait for me my darling, all I want is to be with you, it gets nearer every day, together forever. My love for ever as always, I will never break your heart . Your boy, Alan. Xxxxxxx