My darling, beautiful, irreplacable Heather, There are stiĺl no words and never will be to describe this miserable life without you, I try so hard but my world collapsed and so did my reason to live on losing you on this day last year, every day gets worse, I miss you so so much ,I try to conceal my grief and tears which flow mostly all day along with the bereft loneliness I now have but there can be no happiness now for me without you by my side, you gave me everything and now there is nothing, you fill my thoughts all day and I cry myself to sleep at night in our empty bed after I light your candle and ask God to let me be back with you soon, please wait for me. My love for ever and ever, A heart broken and very lonely, Alan.