My Darling Amazing Heather, Its Christmas eve here and it used to be the best day and night of the year,now its the worst on my own without you,Ive said it so many times ,there are no words to describe this pain,despair and utter loneliness, I think about you every waking moment,cry so much in the many black moments and just want to be with you. My love forever as always. Alan..xxxxx